Wednesday, 15 February 2017

Loneliness

He is all alone in this lifeless land,
He moaned and moaned for a caring hand.
He prayed to wish for those days far gone,
He stayed too long where he didn't belong.

He thinks a lot, wants to laugh it out.
But tears find their way somehow.
He wishes a lot, wants to express it out.
But the feelings fell in a crack somehow.

He talks alone, he walks alone,
He weeps alone, he laughs alone.
He sits alone on this weary day,
And waits like none..maybe someone will come.

He thinks of what will people say,
He craves for that sweet little 'hey!'
But no one comes at this mayday
The soul has worn and the shadows stay

His mind will burst and his heart will thirst
For the heat of love has turned him to dust
The smiles went dwarf and sorrows grew tall
it's a blink it takes, and the tears will fall.

He ditched his soul for it wasn't his part,
He stitched his heart for it was ripping apart.
He screamed aloud, but no one heard,
He drowned away unsaid unheard.

Hence he walks with resisting legs,
and hence he talks to the sulking walls.
For all he wants is laugh and fly
But all he does is weep and crawl.

Friday, 3 February 2017

ये दुनिया का चक्र है प्यारे!

"अरे भैया! जगह दो यार, ट्रैन ना हुआ कुंभ का मेला हो गया, हटिये ज़रा "
With endless similar dialogues fighting and panting through the ruckus of a train I came to my seat, it felt like the peak of Everest.
but wait..someones sleeping on the peak...
"ओ भाई मेरी सीट है, उठो चलो, वैसे भी दिल्ली आ गया, यहाँ तो अच्छे अच्छे उठ जाते हैं "
A sleeping beauty who had conquered my seat had to forcefully get up and smile at me while cursing me from within, to destroy his dreams of traveling with comfort.
After about an hour of adjustments and window peeping, my berth was intruded by a family. A big family. It was like a vegetable soup, with the following contents:
A big couple ( grand parents )
The young couple (parents) and
The teenagers.
They had a lot of luggage, Dada ji carried a big bag and was really struggling with it, dadi said "let me help" but male ego doesn't get old. Teenager carried a small bag too but technology in the other hand was way too heavy and required way too much attention than a panting Dada ji.
They all somehow managed to grab seats and luggage was placed
Teens jumped on to their seats.
Parents sat with content and
Old ones sat holding their knees...
Dadi said to one of the teens "मुन्ना पानी की बोतल निकाल  दे, प्यास लग रही है "
Munna who had worked so hard with the luggage was tired and of course, chatting took way too much effort, so declined the request saying, "मम्मी से मांग लो ना प्लीज "
The poor old lady was defeated by a 'please' and now turned with hope to her bahu, who was trying to hide her wrinkles using makeup, bahu said, "माजी! देखिये आपके पास ही तो है बैग, ले लीजिये उसी में से, प्लीज ". And 'Please!' won again. Dadi knew the bag was close enough but she also knew that bending down to the bag, stretching the arm and tensing the knee required effort, throat craved for water but age refused. "छोड़ो बाद में ही पी लुंगी!". None of the ears cared.
Dadaji took the bottle out, after struggling through the contents of the bag and his shivering hands..
Teens sunk into chatting, dad went busily attending calls, mom with make up and the old couple craved for attention. I knew they wanted someone to talk to, dadiji was sweet enough and asked me where I was from and where I was heading to, she told me how difficult it is to travel in trains and offered me laddoos.The entire journey the mom-dad slept, the teens did thumb exercise on the phone and the old couple talked to me, dadiji said something that struck me hard and I quote
"बेटा ज़िन्दगी में चाहे जितना आगे भड़ जाओ, जितनी तरक्की कर लो, जितना पैसा कमा लो, जब बुढ़ापे की लाठी पड़ती है तो यही ज़िन्दगी नरक बन जाती है, अकेलापन सहारा बन जाता है जब अपने साथ छोड़ देते हैं, अब हमें ही देख लो, जायदात बेटे की देख रेख में है , घर बहु की देख रेख में है, पोते हमारी देख रेख में हैं पर हम इनसे एक नज़र को तरस जाते हैं.
अब भूख लगे तो किस्से कहें जब प्यास ने नीयत परख ली है". She smiled and continued, "
ज़िन्दगी में कुछ ऐसा करो की कभी किसी पर निर्भर न रहना पड़े  और जो तुम पर निर्भर करे उसे कभी रोना न पड़े."
Munna intruded..."दादी भूख  लग रही है जोर से "
And the lady with a meek little face...said."आजा बेटा मैं  खिला दूँ "
Dada ji continued talking to me and said..."तुम जवान हो, नया नया खून है, आगे बहुत जिम्मेदारियां आएँगी, बहुत पैसा आएगा, लेकिन भूढ़े होते माँ बाप का ध्यान कर लेना! दुआ लगेगी।
हमारे पिताजी कहते थे :
"आज बुढापा अपना बोझा, कल तेरा भी होगा
ये दुनिया का चक्र है प्यारे आज जो तेरा हो चला है कल तेरा न होगा।
करले पिता की चाकरी, तू उठा ले माँ का बोझा
ये दुनिया का चक्कर है प्यारे, कल तू भी बुड्ढ़ा होगा।
तू बच्चे की देख रेख में माँ बाप भुला न देना,
ये दुनिया का चक्र है प्यारे,आज जो नीयम सीख रहा है उन्हें कल भुला न देना
अभी ज़िन्दगी हरी भरी है अभी तू ज़िंदा होगा
कल, सांस चलेगी जैसे तैसे, तू फिरभी मुर्दा होगा"
Hahaha he laughed.
His laugh mocked relief, his eyes shouted pain. I was in utter dilemma and just wanted to talk to my own parents, who i believe must have the same fear for their old age.
The next morning I called my mom and dad, who asked, " बेटा! कुछ खाया क्या?"

Saturday, 21 January 2017

                                                                       A hostler's tale!
Transformation is one autonomous life-changeryou go way too ahead and turn back to realize that the ten-year-old you, was A and the 15-year-old you is Z. We change every day, some for better, some for worse. One such change, one such surprising transformation takes place after 12th, as soon as a person enters college and becomes a part of a hostel. ‘Parental guidance’, however irritating it may be initially but when you go onboard to such a ship of independent living, all those guidelines start making sense. The effects of hostel life are a mix of boon and bane. Let’s compare ourself. As a school going student we are bound to follow a routine i.e. WAKE up EARLY, BATH, BATH, BATH, go to school for a STIPULATED TIME, come back home and go to PLAY, have MILK and snacks, STUDY, have a BALANCED DIET, prepare the bag for next day and SLEEP ON TIME. Now, the blogger hasn’t gone mad with the caps lock key but wants to emphasize what all things stop to exist or are least taken care of when the same kid comes to a hostel. Now just re-focus on the capital words, they don’t make sense in a hostel.
Sleeping early is rather associated with a punishable offense or body ailment. The only person whom you may find awake at 6 would be the one who didn’t sleep all night or the one with gastro-intestinal issues. TIME gets a whole new meaning in college life. It now means ‘something that flies un-noticed and gets scolded like anything during exams for not existing before’. Hostel life is like a parallel world with higher levels of laziness, higher population of ignorant procrastinators, infinite fun and minimal awareness. We become intolerant gamers, nights become our day and days turn into nights unnoticed, books rot and mobiles and laptops blossom, bathing becomes a choice, in winters it’s a carefully planned mission. Health deserves to be ignored because it hides behind the excuse ‘This is the age when you can eat all stuff and the stomach won’t rebel’. I am a hostler too and I am most of what is mentioned here.
It’s sad to write all this and many might get offended but the truth is that this part of society that has gone totally cut off with the outer world survives on its own rules, no one teaches them the art of living without a governing hand.
When people return from home, there is a glow on the face, the skin seems fresh and the eyes sparkle. Let a month pass by, rotting starts, hair gets messy and complexion dims. Yellow gasping eyes that have been devoid of sleep ask attention and are surrounded by the darkness of technology. Cleanliness, orderliness are all nuisances that existed when mom was around.
Not all are the same and not one does it all but such practices that exist are like scratches on a car that the owner tried to save all his life. From the distant lands the car seems new, go close enough and you're far from true. Let's peek into the attitude:

Clutter everywhere, a stinky bin
It smells like hell but the deo works cool
This mess needs attention but I got plans
Let the weekend come, right now I don’t give a damn!

The books call me, "hey! I exist,
Boy o boy I am meant to be read".
The books can wait but the tech, cannot.
Let the exams come, right now I don’t give a damn!

They sent me with dreams and blessings on the head,
Now they call me for food or money or health.
They don’t get it dude, I am the busiest bee,
Let all go to hell, right now I don’t give a damn!


Wake up people!